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Self Historicization

Posted on by THOR in Livin' the Dream, The American Dream

Hello!!
Carly here. With an attempt to put myself in our current historical context.
I am 28 years of age. Graduated college during the hardly heard of economic collapse in 2008– angry as a hornet.

Schooling really is watered down and lacking substance.
At my state school it was well known and accepted that the students refused to read text books. Professors had to learn to work around it. Not one of my classmates had high hopes for their future. The cubicle was calling. And, the college years were for celebrating life/ drowning sorrows.

Today, we are sitting in the midst of a square between Uranus in Aries & Pluto in Capricorn. These two planets were conjunct during the height of the sixties.
We could call our current climate a second wave. Which means more are to come.

Everyday I fight addiction. My self Love is on the rise. Still, physical desire is highly honored in this society.

No matter how well I relate to the esoteric world doesn’t change the fact that I’m working my ass off. In a what I refer to as “Argumentative Reality.” Creating what I need to satisfy my needs in this world.

The right attire really helps a person push their agenda at a party. But the right attire never seems to appear. At least in my mind. According to the outside world I get it right every time! All I want is to wear my own individuated uniform– which is much different from the uniform worn by the crowds of “individuals“.

Oh! And, I am an “early degree” Capricorn. 9 degrees actually. A point that was given ridiculing attention by the Lord of the Under World for major portions of 2011-12. And, we’re not done visiting that point just yet! 
Nine is a very important number. Think of how the Germans use it. Nein! It marked the painful end before a new beginning could slowly begin. We are here now. Have you noticed? 

As a Super Special Person who is always one step ahead of the game– Pluto provided me an early initiation. The only way he knows how: RAPE

By a man who I knew better than to have as my boyfriend.

I’m too lazy to be an outright radical. Sleeping in the street & protesting do not make much sense to me. Instead, I honor Radical Self Reliance: By  Gardening & pickling. Or, by choosing to be a Figure Model.

My Love Life fits the bill of what’s HOT right now. At the moment it all still feels very hush hush. My intention however is to just Let it Out. All of it. What ever who cares. Right?

This essay reminds me of a most favored quote :

I don’t want to be a product of my environment. I want my environment to be a product of me. – Frank Costelo 

 

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BoilerPlate

Posted on by THOR in Bridge Building, Livin' the Dream, Public Relations, Writing Samples

CARLY is the Structure Constructor who invites you to C : me (see me) Bridge Build Business Professionally, Consult Closets for Confidence & Comfortability. Write & Smile Daily.

When you don't have a hard structure around you, you have to be alert each moment. You must respond to the new situation before you.
When you don’t have a hard structure around you, you have to be alert each moment. You must respond to the new situation before you.

Carles Blog Bio Draft 2010

Posted on by THOR in Livin' the Dream, Writing Samples

 The plan is to establish communication structures that lead to active participation. Communication is a dialogue. Please join the conversation! 

Carles Blog began in the Fall of ’09 as a personal project with a few intentions in mind: to keep me focused on my overarching intentions and goals, to act as an easily accessible cure for boredom, to open myself up in order to find other people of a similar nature, and to act as an easy reference for potential collaborators/employers. To date, it’s been successful!

This blog is me in a nutshell. Most everything I get into I blog about, so it’s kind of all over the place.  To see what I’m into, start by checking out who I follow on Twitter.

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As everything else in my life, it’s a work in progress- but it draws a decent picture. Essentially, I’m working towards self-betterment in order to achieve world betterment. Sometimes it’s a juggle between the two.

The old foundation is still being ripped up, so that the new pillars have a stronger foundation on which to stand. 

I’m serious.  I like to have a jolly good time. I struggle.

No one is perfect, if you’ve reached perfection you wouldn’t be reading my blog or any other blog for that matter. Some of what is said here is stated for the pure fact that I need to drill it into my own brain.

Sometimes I later disagree with my own arguments.

A bit rough around the edges, I used to swear here because I swore everywhere else. I’ve learned that it’s not that good to swear. Even though the word FUCK is sooooo colorful! So, I’m working on peppering in other language that ‘s just as decorative.

I do edit my posts. And, I always feel its best to have an outside editor. In this case, there’s none available. Please forgive any misspellings or punctuation errors. They usually occur in the case of changing the way a thought is phrased.

During my down time, I learn how to cook, bake, & sew.

I whole heartedly believe that food is medicine. While cooking I wonder if my attitude towards it ever causes others to wonder whether or not I am a witch. I really do dream of being Susie Homemaker!

Though in my daydream, I always have a house in the back where I can retreat to be alone. 

The word “I” is most likely one of my least favorite to use- EVER! It is a constant goal to be more creative, since it is assumed that since I am writing it, that it is my opinion!

I LOVE self expression and communication!

Graduating college in the Spring of ’08 just as the economy went KERPLUNK! Actually, opened me up to a world of experiences and opportunities that would not have been available otherwise. My career has plumped out nicely to be just that- a career. 

One that is fully committed to the complete overhaul & rejuvenation of:

Dear Mother Earth

The world of business– particularly in areas of morality

Personal SELF betterment

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Poetic Skill Sets

Posted on by THOR in Livin' the Dream, Writing Samples

In October of 2013, I challenged myself to complete Structure Constructor’s place holder website in one week. Mission Accomplished. 
Growing as both an individual & in professionalism my intent is to have the pages of this site demonstrate my maturity.

What was created at that time however is worth keeping on display, somehow. Here is a piece from before. What I’m good at. Highlighted. Written with fluidity.

  • Engaging
  • Public Representation
  • Networking Extraordinaire
  • Watch eye
  • Writer
  • Social Media Speaker
  • Operator
  • Inquisitive
  • Observant
  • Strategist
  • Takes good notes
  • Backboard. For Brainstorming!!
  • Stepping Stones
  • Creative Solutionist
  • Crafty Frugality ask me about Sheboygan!
  • CARLY
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Claiming Power Clocking Hours

Posted on by THOR in Livin' the Dream

Greetings, Carly here once again with a story for you to attend.

Mars is preparing its forward motion as we speak. Finally, my fingers are ready to leap!

Mars is a militant planet which controls action! Since its retreat in February our attentions have been turned inward. Gears grinding. I keep self reminding– that we’re in this for the long haul. It’s okay to stall. Especially, for carefully planned preparation. Which is the blessing this retrograde has bestowed upon us all.

I’m here to share a bit about my new career as a Figure Model. More importantly to touch upon the Life Lessons which have lead me down this path:

  • Self Acceptance

  • Self Assertion

People LOVE me. All kinds of people, who I meet all over. Not just the ones

Thanks, Bodo
Thanks, Bodo

who get to see me naked. And, up until very recently I have been hating them.  

Unable to see the good in myself, it was an endlessly frustrating experience to have others show their appreciation. Then, has repulsion would have it– the more I hated it the more it would happen.

Until the fateful day (Scorpio New Moon, 2013) when I stripped down for a group of artists over 50. With Fear out of the way I was empowered with the freedom to consider options outside of self loathing.

Given time to sit & think slowly I began to unravel.

Along came Lesson #2. Guess what? I, Carly the Model, is in Control. 

Or, at least that’s what they would have you believe. In order to have control you must take it. And, while sex drives do no belong in a nude studio undoubtedly the human condition takes precedence over Man Made Rules.

Allowing people to cross my boundaries in humiliating. Only worsened by that fact that I am naked on top of that. Which really aids in lighting a fire for me to speak up. Yay! 

For now, these lessons are being hammered in. Time & time again.

Please, follow along as this girl learns through Figure Modeling what it means to walk a Life Path Number 11. 

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Returning to Center

Posted on by THOR in Livin' the Dream

Hello!

I used to live a double life. Which really isn’t as exciting as it sounds. More stressful really.

What was happening in actuality was that I was unhappy with the choices I had made. So, in order to express my pain clearly I made the executive decision to create a pen named space where I was able to write freely without having to worry about anyone who knew me reading.

Until the fateful day when the one person I had hoped to hide from found my writings and read them all. Betrayal isn’t even a word to be applied here. Because I was the one all along not living in Truth.

My hope is that these days are behind me now. That it is no longer necessary for me to hide my Self from all of you.

It was only ever my own mind that convinced me to.

Right now, I work primarily as a model. A muse really for artists in need of inspiration. Sometimes this requires me to be nude. While posing portrait the other day I decided that it was time to solidify. Be me. Just me. And, to make no apology.

I feel that there have been many teaser introductions in recent past of things to come. Finally, now I have reached a healthy level of Self Acceptance to do my work without worry.

So, get ready. Because now I am officially ready to share myself with you!!

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Sitting with Francis Bacon at Lill St. Drawing Workshop

Posted on by THOR in Livin' the Dream

Francis Bacon is a surrealist whose works capture the human spirit. His portraits & figures appear blurry.

Francis Bacon Self-Portrait
Francis Bacon Self-Portrait

Demonstrating the abstract piece of permanence which exists within us all.

Bacon was introduced to me while posing at Lill Street Art Center for Bob Horn’s Portrait Class.

Peeking through the pages of his biography during breaks provided me with the inspiring insights of what art can do when one is willing to let loose.

I have chosen the path of Posing in order to practice Following the Rules. 

Stepping slowly towards success. Managing my own calendar. Following up in a timely manner. Arriving to work not on time- early. All in an effort to claim my Power.

True Strength and actual Security exist within the houses which we

Sitting Naturally. Charcoal. Lill St., Friday March 21, 2014
Sitting Naturally. Charcoal. Lill St., Friday March 21, 2014

carry with us. Releasing the fear and anxiety that I have been clinging to in regards to my own body is a blessing so big that it’s price is penniless.

Keep up for more posts on what I find out as I travel down this rabbit hole.

Aho! 

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Blogging about Freedom on the El Train

Posted on by THOR in Self Reliance, The American Dream

Saturn!! The Nun of the Zodiac has positioned herself in my 3rd house.

The House of friends, neighbor’s, Communications & Short distance travel.

Saturn puts up blocks. Makes you WORK for it! Essentially, setting you up to build something. Yay!

Today, I’m riding the El train two ways. Not a typical event for me. However the forecast appears that it will be more likely in the future.

Or, will it?

I am now working as an Elf.
Elf # 3 @ Gaia’s Delights!
Which is 10.5 miles away from my beach house in the top hat of Chicago.

The weather this week has been beautiful! So, I rode my bike..Yikes!

Ravenswood has many little hills. Today, it was supposed to be cold. Which it is, sort of. If you think 30° is cold and I really don’t.

This whole post began because I wish I rode my bike today!

On the flip side of that feeling I am now blogging. A hobby project that I am always in search of time to do more of.

So, thank you! CTA redline for existing. And, for having a stop on my block.

The Sewing Rebel ladies are meeting me at my house this evening.

The Ultimate Goal is Urban Homesteading!!

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Social Networking Breakfast with BNI

Posted on by THOR in Bridge Building, Public Relations, The American Dream

Good morning!

I sang as I rode from Rogers Park to the adorable Golden Apple on the corner of Lincoln & South Port.

To meet a lovely group of Professionals for breakfast at 7am!! A breakfast network called BNI, who this year collectively gathered around 65K by weaving their web of individuals.

Waking up before the Sun is not a regular habit of mine. It has been however, a long standing intention. One that I am now sure I can stick to. Or, at  least meet once weekly.

(Am yawning as I write you. Though in sticking to my boundaries I chose tea over coffee.)

On to business!! This group was very efficient. My buddy Dave, who extended the invitation was looking at his watch as I rode up.

6:25 on the dot!

He and I are both ruled by Time…

Of course, my outfit was a tad more colorful than the typical business attire.  Though, I do feel that I did a GOOD JOB explaining my Bridge Building Business Professional spiel.

And, hurrah!! To me for taking the step forward & volunteering my way into this event for the Opportunity. (It’s Positive Reinforcement to Pat YourSelf on the Back).

Networking is an essential function in forward propulsion.

While in attendance of this breakfast I was remindred of the Importance in Following the Rules. I can’t help but to be colorful! Still, it’s a lot to ask of others to understand that I am a Bridge Building Business Professional.

Life Coach & Consultant came up as “alternatives.”  So, perhaps I will forgo long explanations and simply say  that.

From my stance however, I do like to ask people to think. Furthering conversation and leaving doors open.

Build Bridges, Friends

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