Francis Bacon is a surrealist whose works capture the human spirit. His portraits & figures appear blurry.
Francis Bacon Self-Portrait
Demonstrating the abstract piece of permanence which exists within us all.
Bacon was introduced to me while posing at Lill Street Art Center for Bob Horn’s Portrait Class.
Peeking through the pages of his biography during breaks provided me with the inspiring insights of what art can do when one is willing to let loose.
I have chosen the path of Posing in order to practice Following the Rules.
Stepping slowly towards success. Managing my own calendar. Following up in a timely manner. Arriving to work not on time- early.All in an effort to claim my Power.
True Strength and actual Security exist within the houses which we
Sitting Naturally. Charcoal. Lill St., Friday March 21, 2014
carry with us. Releasing the fear and anxiety that I have been clinging to in regards to my own body is a blessing so big that it’s price is penniless.
Keep up for more posts on what I find out as I travel down this rabbit hole.
Carly entered some c:me fashions to the the Bike Winter Art Fashion Show. This Golden Raindrop Poncho was worn down the runway by Alee Reina Hoffman. Betty Alper was her Bike Escort. Show was held at Ancien Cycles on Friday, February 28, 2014.
Click on one of the pictures to pop up the Gallery!
Our Own Life Has to Be Our Message. -Thich Naht Hanh
Easier said than done.
At least for me the Queen of lacking in Self-Acceptance.
2013 embarked a course of Speaking My Truth.
Admitting that there is a Problem is the first step to Recovery. That IS the Truth!!
Once upon a time I threw a piece of my Truth on the table for a small group to chew on. In hindsight, it was more like dishing out a whole box of crackers & saying Swallow: without water. It would have behooved us all to have started with an appetizer.
The Experience impaired my ability to move forward with those people. Even after I said that I wouldn’t.
Leading me to some very important Realizations:
That I have a tendency to minimalize my own hurt feelings and sadness. Favoring instead a mask of Strength & Courage.
My hiding from what’s really there hurts Everyone involved. Stagnating the Relationship.
I care WAY too much about what other people think of me. And in turn become the harshest judge of all. EEK!!
**Not speaking my Truth immediately damaged my ability to grow with a nice group of people.
I appreciate Drama. Sometimes go for shock value.
Over the Summer a very wise Teacher said to me:
Do what you’re doing. Just live it fully.
In putting together this blog/site I am here pondering what aspects of my Self should be edited out. YIKES!!
Going one step further– in an effort to Speak My Truth more clearly I adopted a pen name in order to practice sharing my feelings publicly.
Doing it in secret eliminated the fear of being seen as vulnerable. Or, being held accountable for them. These days I’d rather cull it all into the one piece that is me.
NOTE: Emotions are strong!! They will suck you down & in. If you allow them. The ONLY way to have control over your emotions is to simply EXPRESS them. Once you let them out they are gone.
Still, I struggle & find it natural to hold back. Which is totally okay.
Now that I have identified this as my main issue my path has moved to seek out people, places & methods of bringing about a release. Safety First.
Why is all of this apparent tangent rant about emotions important to the title of this post? Well, Thor here believes that most people hide from their true emotions. Ergo, hiding from their true selves.
Wreaking havoc. On the Bodhi & in the Mind.
This Thor knows well how denying your True Being will only Force it to fight back against you. Talk about a Terror!
The real Truth is that most people possess a greater fear to LIVE than they do of dying. Because in order to truly live one must die many times.
Humility is a harsh teacher.
Her Lessons are Always Remembered.
My Life & Being are quite indicative of the Renaissance sweeping over us. It has swept through me & I’ve now come to the realization that my very Existence was set with Intention.
For this moment, ever present. The Experience is what has brought me here.
This site was constructed to represent my Professional Self. Oh, the all encompassing Carly- from this perspective it’s hard to say which parts of me will turn a greater profit.
(These days I’m packing boxes).
One thing is for sure, WRITING, is a quintessential aspect of my being.
Please bare with me as I work to reveal mySelf Truthfully..
For the past few years I’ve been flip flopping my diet, depending on the dish.
Looking longingly at my gluten-free, lactose free friends who hold composure as I bite into whatever is delicious!
Lately, I’ve been a bit recluse & feeling the pain of my indecision. Choosing more often to stick with what’s right over what tastes good. Not that eating healthy has to taste bad. It’s just rarely placed on the table in front of me…
Thanksgiving was a true test of endurance. Sticking with celery sticks for most of the Appetizer Hour. Avoiding the array of cheeses & nacho cheese dips.
It wasn’t until a cousin came and plopped down stuffed mushrooms right in front of me that I keeled. Eating far too many.
The pumpkin dessert didn’t make my night any better.
Dinner was good! I was able to stay the course with what is truly nourishing for my body.
That night I was begging for the ER. Crappy cheese with just a little bit of white bread created a serious STOPPAGE in my digestive system!! Inflaming my intestines.
Never have I ever experienced such pain. FOOD POISONING. On Thanksgiving.
Rest assured, the lesson has been learned. It is crucial to stick with what I know will serve my body good. To stay away from the items that my taste buds are simply used to having placed upon them.
Friday was sickly. Saturday dedicated largely to recovery.
Another thought this brings up: Christmas should be served in courses.
Visualize: Living Your Life just as you Imagine it.
When you don’t have a hard structure around you, you have to be alert each moment. You must respond to the new situation before you.
It is Absolutely Possible!!
Now I’m ready with How to Guide You:
This class will cover two aspects:
1. How to tap into your self to know who you are and what you have to offer.
2. Steps on developing a structure for success.
Whether it’s getting into the groove of school, finding a job, managing your life as it is, or creating something all your own. This workshop will develop your own self-confidence.
Two weeks ago, a potential job DROPPED into my lap. The best possible job potential I have ever had the pleasure of being faced with.
Writing the Cover Letter was a REALLY EXCITING Experience. Regardless of the outcome I am Proud of my Work. So, I’d like to Share it with you Here. : )
( : October 22, 2013 : )
Hello!!
Carly here, to Transform Reality, Professionally. We met on Sunday. How are you today?
Let us begin with my personal mission:
to Meet Potential
and to Move Further
Recently I submitted a Grant Proposal entitled Grounding Dreams to Reality.
In which, made a public stance as a “Transformational Specialist.” Declared a Call to Action within my Community for Personal and Communal Transformation. In order to Create our Greatest Possible Society: Individuals must Step-Up, Let-Go, & Share their Gifts. Therein lies the process…
Through out my Career I have had Opportunity to Orchestrate Events from Every Aspect.
In 2008, I began by leading groups of Trash Talking Volunteers in Guerilla Garbage Sorting Action. Educating crowds by the thousands is how I began Networking; now my Specialty is in Connecting!
Receiving Invitations to oversee “Greening” across the city Enabled Growth. Boosted in 2010 when called to bat for Mindful Metropolis Magazine, Green Festivals & Working Bikes. All at Once,
I was Introduced to a World of Potential and Amazing People!
While being Faced with the Harsh Reality in Light of the Economy. Evolution is Upon Us!
Working Bikes Provided a Home for my Professional Development & Passion: Weaving Connections across the Midwest, Managed a Calendar of Events, Planned, Organized, Social Media, & Booth Space Design. Caused a Notable Increase in the Number of Donations Received, Orchestrated National & International Shipments. Got my Hands Dirty!! Co-creating Reality
Dedicated to the Pursuit of Personal & Professional Growth.
Keeping an Active Role in Community by Picking and Preparing speakers for Green Festival stages. Promoting Good Food along side GFREEV, Bot Bakery, Arize Kombucha & Edible Alchemy.
Developing a Structure & Foundation with Pedal to the People, Extended My Realm of Qualities & Task Management Abilities.
Priority Attention on my own Vitality: Dancing Ecstatically, Yoga + Meditation Regularly.
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